My dorky poem

Before I go to bed
I want to say
I like it when u make me feel special
in every way

You're in my dreams
every night and day
i wake up with a smile
in bed, as i lay

isn't it strange
to be able to feel
so happy and nervous
and to think if its real

my hands are shaking
still smiling at you
seeing u smile
seem to make everything true

now i'm gonna rest
and lay in my bed
i'll be dreaming of u tonight
remembering everything that u'v said

*to the guy behind this crappy poem, u suck LOL u got me into posting something very dorky on my page. hehe u know who u are.. thanks for always making me smile :)*

A blog about a blog

**disclaimer**
This blog is not about trying to answer back the 2 blogs that I just read. Its more about my own opinion on the subject matter

I was browsin around in myspace (again lol) and I chanced upon 2 profile pages of 2 totally different guys that came here a few months back. How I felt about it, I dont really know. Well, sure its embarassing to live in a country that has people seeling their children as sex slaves but what can I say? This IS a third world country.. As sad as it may sound.. And I'm not saying people arent doing anything about it, coz they are.. well... as far as i know.. Its a sad fact that alot of filipinos would accept a job that pays below the minimum wage just to earn some money to get by every single day..

Another truth is about the upper class of this country. Rich people trying to get everything they can get their greedy hands on. Not thinking of who they hurt in the process..
Honestly, I shouldnt be the right person to really react about the prostitution here because I lived a very sheltered life. Growing up, I thought prostitution only exsisted in the movies.. It was later during my teenage years that I came to realize that there is indeed prostitution and that they were just around. I never even knew that there was kiddie porn here until I was invited for an audition.. gawd..

Its embarassing to have come to realize how low some people can get to try and hussle someone out of something. Foreigner or Local. This is not the first time that I have seen or heard of something like this and somehow, everything gets worse every single day. I have had a few friends here who are foreigners, whether itd be for business or just taking a vacation and it would always be the same.. The same type of people taking advantage of foreigners, vacationees etc.

So there no use in defending our part as filipinos if some of us are really aware of how the country is.. The only hope that some of us have is that, thses same people who's had some bad experience here would also come to realize that not all filipinos are husslers or prostitutes or greedy swanks, some of us are just.. ok.

The things people say out of desperation... its pathetic..

so i've been looking through a bunch of friends profiles.. u know.. just browsin through myspace.. coz im really really bored. lol and when im bored, i tend to notice things that im not really suppose to even react about. lol so what?? this is me this week. lol if u dont like it, i have to simple words for you: BITE ME! haha

People say alot of things just to get noticed. like post "kiss ass" comments. its really funny what alot of people can say and then hope to get answered back. its a bit frustrating when they dont answer back. isnt it? lol but geez... if the person doesnt answer back the first, second and third time, daaaaaaaaaaamn... dont u think its time to stop???? lol

People can really be funny sometimes.. Gawd.. I miss the old days when life was simple.. Oh wait.. I'm not that old. lol

Bite Me!

I'm bored.


Mind is blank.


Got a song to finish.


Having a hard time breathing.



Eyes fixated at the guitar.





This is gonna be a long night.

Boredom kills

I'm sooooo bored...


Ive got to finish this song by tom and my mind is soooo blank. lol
Oh well. been surfin the net for hours now.. I found this site that I can totally waste my time in. lol http://www.blogthings.com/ and its really cool. I got this one :D



lol how bored am i???? lol

THE KEYS TO MY HEART:

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is very low. You can resist desire and lust.
You think of marriage as something precious.
You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment.
Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

i hate cheaters

i hate cheaters. just in general.. like, when ur in a relationship and ur guy doesnt stop flirting with other girls. yeah.. his status is "in a relationship" but does it really make a difference when he says the exact same things to other girls? damn.. it was like, "copy and paste" lol

i find it funny tho.. when we were together, he would always say that i was cheating.. but after we broke up, thanks to a couple of loyal friends, i found out the truth. that he was cheating. so yeah.. i hate cheaters.

and there's this guy who like, wanted to get back with me, but he has a gf. then when i agreed to get back with him, the next day he changes his mind. im like, what the hell was that?? lol it doesnt really matter.i mean, if he really wants to be withhis gf, its ok with me but duh.. why would u risk making a mistake by getting back with ur ex when u really want to "give this girl a chance"? or maybe him wanting to get back together was just to give his ego a boost. yeah.. i think he needed that. lol or maybe it was to get back at me for hurting him.. i dunno.. i dont know him anymore.. and i dont plan on getting back with him..

i dont want to go through the recycling bin. nope. recycling ex's is not my thing. lol

so anyway, im sooo bored.. maybe thats why im whining on my blog again.. not much to do.. not that many people online.. i wonder whats new in the real world.. lol thinking of partying tonight


xo

the Randy Orton look-a-like

His smile caught my attention.

Ive been crushing on this guy for weeks (i think, for more than a month) now.. and when I say crush, i meant like, CRUSH! lol like a school girl-crush.. like when u like someone on tv, u like looking at them and just looking is enough..

After weeks and weeks and weeks of whining at his brother about how I wanna talk to him.. to get to know him... I finally had the courage to send him a message.

He replied!

Omg! We're actually talking!!!

So this is how it feels.. Gawd.. I can't stop smiling!!
I really like him

Where does my story end? A few days after we started talking..

He got engaged.

*sigh* I'm happy for him, but at the same time.. i'm sad.. not really to the point wherein I would cry.. nah.. but more like, I wish I met him first. lol

But like I told him.. I'd rather be his friend than nothing at all.. Its funny.. I still ask myself, if I had met him first, or even just a few weeks earlier, would I have made a difference? Or would he still get engaged? nah.. I think he's too much inlove to have noticed me.. lol but its ok though.. he's a good friend. I wouldnt like it any other way